Sethe's Internal Conflicts, and What Are Her True Desires Toward Paul D?

Two questions that are often asked when people are reading a book through the psychoanalytical lens are:

1. Are the characters struggling with any internal conflicts?  Can this explain why they make certain decisions or subconscious choices? 
2. 

1. Does the author or any of the characters have hidden desires or impulses?

The paragraph I thought answered these two questions was in Chapter 1, Page 21:
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"Would there be a little space, she wondered, a little time, some way to hold off eventfulness, to push busyness into the corners of the room and just stand there a minute or two, naked from shoulder blade to waist, relieved of the weight of her breasts, smelling the stolen milk again and the pleasure of baking bread? Maybe this one time she could stop dead still in the middle of a cooking meal--not even leave the stove--and feel the hurt her back ought to. Trust things and remember things because the last of the Sweet Home men was there to catch her if she sank?"

Sethe, Beloved's main character, faces huge internal conflicts between her life and her present life and {the scarring events that she had endured through in her past during the time while she was a slave}. One event that had and continue to have a huge drain on her was when she was raped and "her milk was stolen"{by the "new" owners of Sweet Home}. At that point of the story, the characters that are currently alive and relevant to the story are Sethe, Denver, Sethe's Daughter, Paul D. Sethe's mother-in-law has died, and her two eldest sons, Howard and Buglar, have left home. Sethe and Paul D entered the kitchen while Denver stayed behind in the adjoining room. Sethe and Paul D start a conversation that started because Paul D wanted to know why they were still living in 124 and why they hadn't moved. Sethe then starts talking about her past. She told him that the schoolteacher had done something to her back and that it caused it a "chokecherry tree" to form on her back. {What she meant by this was that the School teacher had whipped her back, and the whips had left various scars on her back that she described as looking like a chokecherry tree.}

This is an important event of Sethe's past because it contributes to the internal conflicts that Sethe faces which leads to Sethe not wanting to have more kids and not wanting to be with another man "physically". {After going through a traumatic event, people that have genuinely suffered are often referred to as being different after the event has happened. I can assume that what they mean by this is that, those affected are often so scarred that they are like a row of dominoes that can be triggered at any moment to fall and cascade against each other, ultimately leading to all of them falling down. Having the ability to be triggered and sent back to a moment in time that scarred you in the first place, can be very hard on account that it can lead you to spiral out of control and end in your demise. No one wants to go back to a place that they disliked.} When she says "smelling the stolen milk again" that is how we know that the moment has triggered her to remember that event from her past {because she cannot actually smell her stolen milk, but it is actually a memory that was triggered by other senses that were occurring both back then and now.} Having remembered that she was raped, Sethe starts struggling with what to do about Paul D. This is seen at this moment because in one of her monologues she "wondered" if she could "trust and remember things" to how her life was in the past and not focus on what was currently happening because "the last of the Sweet Home men was there" and maybe he could bring her back to a time before she had suffered through the traumatic event. {Sethe is trying to "fight against" the memory that continued being triggered by trying to trigger a memory of her own which could take her to a time before any of the scarring events happened. Although it is not "declared" if it worked or not, we can assume as readers that it kind of worked on account that she is able to be with Paul D on that level.} The second question revolves around hidden desires or impulses, which I connected to Paul D. Paul D is an odd character and in this passage he represents {a memory for Sethe, to a time before she was raped, and that she felt safe.} He seems although he has a desire to be with Sethe even though it is almost as if he would be a traitor with his friend Halle, Sethe's husband. This also makes us question if Sethe herself has any hidden desire to be with Paul D, because of what he represents to her. We as readers know that this is an internal conflict that she is struggling through when she states "just stand there a minute or two" and how she wants it "maybe this one time". An internal conflict is something that a character struggles with on deciding. This is an internal conflict because she feels as though she shouldn't be doing it, but she still does. {The reason why it might not be an internal conflict, and it might actually be an external conflict is because of all the physical effects that it has on Sethe in addition to the internal conflicts. The way that it creates an external conflict is because she has these physical barriers where she really feels as though she has no control over her body, which then leads her to believe she doesn't want to be with other men.}

Finally, Sethe's past event of her getting raped and her milk stolen has led her to have internal conflict as whether she can continue her life how it was before, or if she is forced to continue reliving the moment when she was raped. This then leads to her having certain desires for Paul D, and how she wants to be with him for the sense of comfortability from the past that he symbolizes. {When Sethe says "to trust things, and to remember things", it is a gap in her ideals of the mixture between her past and her present because it shows how she fully understands the difference between what happened in her past, her being raped, and what is occurring in the present. The fact that it leads her to want to be with Paul D even more contradicts with the idea that she is scared to be with another man after what happened to her.}